editing the pages of your mind

When I cross the street I always wonder what it would be like to be hit by a car. Always! I sometimes even think it would be exciting... not to be hit badly, just bumped or something. But then I always chide myself with thoughts such as, "that would probably hurt" and "you might have to miss school if that happened."

When I am walking alone anywhere at night, I immediately start considering a kidnapping scenario. What would I do? Would anyone hear me scream? If so, would they come to see what is wrong? Then I usually decide that I might try to fight them off, no one would hear me scream, and if they did they probably wouldn't come unless they were already outside. Then I remind myself that I am in Logan, and I probably won't get kidnapped. Wait... never say never! I always think this.

When I am in the bathroom getting ready for the day, probably taking longer than I need to just because I am super slow like that, I always picture a fight with my roommates. I imagine them knocking on the door and demanding to be let in so that they can do whatever they need to do. Then I imagine myself telling them that they will just have to wait because I'm getting ready right now. This thought process is actually very stressful for me. When the knock actually does come at the door... I pack my things up and leave without a word.

p.s. I don't really like being busy.