when i opened up my eyes

Today I was shivering in Relief Society with my arms folded, coat still on, legs crossed, and I had a thought. I thought to myself, "Why am I so average? I haven't done anything cool. I don't have any talents. I am barely existing in this world. I guess I'm just one of those people who doesn't have anything amazing to accomplish." Very self-deprecating, I know. Right after I had this sad thought, the teacher stood up and said, "Today I am going to talk about something that I am very passionate about. Our divine potential."

Her lesson was amazing. Exactly what I needed to hear. One of the things she said was that in a child development class she took, she learned that everyone goes through a stage where they believe they are destined for great things, but they eventually grow out of that. Who told them that they couldn't do great things? That they weren't good enough, smart enough, strong enough. Who gave everyone the idea that only a few people are meant to stand up for something, to teach something, to love something? We are frightened away from our own potential. Frightened by the exact thoughts that I had this morning. That maybe we are just average, just meant to sit back and do the best we can. That we can watch other people change the world. That only a few people can do something amazing.

Well, that's wrong. We all have an extraordinary purpose and reason for being here. Let's find it.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Marianne Williamson

p.s. why is it so hard for me to take naps?