I'll be who you need me to be

This weekend I saw Eat Pray Love with my mother at the Kaysville Theater. It just really got me thinking, you know, about life.

When I was younger, I used to read these 'coming of age' books. I remember reading about the characters going through all of this crazy stuff until they 'found themselves'. This 'finding yourself' concept always bothered me. It scared me actually. It was probably one of my worst fears. I cowered from the thought of the day that I might have to find myself. That I might have to go through some crazy life trial in order to FIND MYSELF.

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When I made it through high school without feeling that need to find myself, I considered myself lucky. Maybe everyone didn't have to go through that. Thank goodness.

Now I'm in my third year of college. And I'm thinking, did I ever do it? Did I find myself?

Maybe I should travel the world and eat pasta, and pray with Indians, and find a Brazilian man to love.

It really seems to be my only option.

p.s. A car keeps honking outside my window. I'm sorry, but is something wrong? Are you having an emergency? Get out of your car and take care of it.