I'm only going to break your heart.

There are a lot of things I would love to blog about right now.

However, I noticed I have 20 followers, which means that a lot more than 4 people are reading the silly things I write down... and that is very intimidating.

I don't think I could ever be a writer, because I get too afraid to bear my soul on (figurative) paper. At least when I know people will be reading.

Probably my love of being mysterious mostly stems from my fear of being vulnerable.

The minute you give someone a piece of you, you give them the power to break it.

I should get over this fear.

Maybe I'll get over it later. For now, I'm going to write a message to each of my followers, and you each get to decide which message is for you:

1. I admire you and your ability to be kind to everyone.

2. I envy you.

3. I think you are strong. Don't let love get you down.

4. I don't think I know you, but I'm glad you read my blog anyway.

5. I liked when you liked me.

6. Sometimes I think you are really funny, but I don't laugh because I know you are serious.

7. I really benefited from you teaching me how to hug.

8. I hope we stay friends forever.

9. I wish we talked more, because you brighten my day.

10. I want to say I'm sorry again, but I know I won't change my mind, so I don't.

11. I pretended like I didn't care, but I really enjoyed dancing with you.

12. I think you have a talent for loving people.

13. I am so glad we are friends, but you shouldn't be afraid to grow up.

14. You're crazy, and I miss our random times together.

15. I love your ability to say what you think.

16. I'm worried about you, I hope you remember who you are.

17. I always wanted to be just like you, and I still kind of do.

18. I don't think you realize how loved you are.

19. I hope you know I consider you one of my best friends.

20. I'm sorry, I just can't do it.

p.s. don't make me sing.