Thursday, April 26, 2012

the whole truth, and nothing but the truth.

Found: a random wooden swing. Absolutely delightful.
I have this problem where I feel the need to look perfect even though I'm not. The worst part is that people believe me. The truth is that I'm lonely a lot. I miss the majority of my friends who aren't around anymore. I went home because I had to work to make money on weekends, but it was also nice to be around my family who love me no matter what. I was doing really good at homework, but now that the school year is almost up, I spend way too much time watching Hulu, and not enough time writing up lessons. I'm terrified to be a teacher. I am usually afraid to ask for things that I want, because I'm afraid of being told no. I still have a random math class to take that I can't get into because I need to pass the math placement exam. I wonder why boys don't ask me on dates, and secretly feel like there might be something wrong with me. 

The other truth though, the one I let people see, is still just as real. The truth that I have wonderful friends who are still here, who help me feel less lonely. Friends who look for new houses with me, friends who get jamba and swing on swings with me, friends who go on hikes with me, and friends who sample fruit with me at grocery stores. My family is always there for me, no matter where I live, and I can genuinely say that they like me quite a bit. Even though I have a hard time committing to homework, I'm doing an awesome job in school, although.... I should probably cut down on Hulu hours. I'm seriously obsessed with teaching. I believe good things will happen to me, even if a few dreams of mine get told no every now and then. And I have really great clothes too, which is always a bonus. 

So there you have it, that's me. Truth.

p.s. in a week, this school thing will be done for SUMMER!!


  1. I've come to learn that sometimes our own perceived inadequacies are our greatest strengths.

  2. I don't like that you're lonely a lot. Next time you're lonely come find me and I'll make you feel not lonely, I promise. Also, you're prty.

  3. You know the reason guys don't ask you out on dates? You're a keeper, and they're just not ready to settle down yet. At least, that's what my mum tells me and it makes me feel better ;)



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