you don't know how lovely you are

It's getting to that stage of the year where I stop wearing a coat... just to rebel against the weather. My mom has a book about feelings related to body pain, apparently the reason my leg hurts is because I have repressed feelings of resentment. I love love. I looked at a picture of you and I realized I don't even know you anymore. I'm anxiously waiting for a charm to come in the mail. I'll be looking for a secret assignment tomorrow. Olive oil successfully cured my dry skin. I can't even imagine feeling that way. How did we get to this point? I wish I could remind you that you are good enough. Sometimes I just want to fix the world's problems. I love the sound of rain falling on the sidewalk. I was listening to Taylor Swift's "Back to December" and all of a sudden I had a shooting pain down my back. My mom's book told me that was because of feelings of regret toward someone... I think I was channeling Taylor Swift's feelings. I can't believe it's almost my birthday. I can't help but think of who I was last year at this time. Thank goodness for second chances. My six year old cousin asked me what I was like when I was her age. I said I was shorter. Sometimes I feel like this song. I got new shoes. Who am I becoming? Spring has always meant change to me. I'm not afraid of change. What does it mean to be me? What do others see when they see me? I thought I knew what that word meant, but now I'm not sure. What word? 

stop, feelings, resentment, love, anxiously,secret,

imagine, how, enough, rain, regret, believe, 

chances, becoming, change, ME?

p.s. i feel like a pedicure.

It's A Love Story, Baby Just Say YES

Time to come clean.

I still love Taylor Swift, and I don't care who knows it!

That girl sure knows how to sing about fairytales. Maybe that's why I love her, because I still believe in fairytales too :)

"'Speak now or forever hold your peace,' the words said by preachers at the end of wedding ceremonies all over the world, right before the vows. It's a last chance for protest, a moment that makes everyone's heart race, and a moment I've always been strangely fascinated by. So many fantasize about bursting into a church, saying what they'd kept inside for years like in the movies. In real life, it rarely happens.

Real life is a funny thing, you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial, in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I've begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything.

I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life, and looking back regretting the moments we didn't speak up. When we didn't say 'I love you.' When we should've said 'I'm sorry.' When we didn't stand up for ourselves or someone who needed help..."

-Taylor Swift

So here's to speaking now... In the words of John Mayer (who Taylor was rumored to have dated... haha) "Say what you need to say"

p.s. Happy Halloween.