how can i resist ya?

There are quite a few times in my life that I can remember clearly making a decision that changed its course. One of these moments was when I was a small child. Want to hear it? Of course you do!

So, as a child I was very sensitive to other people's feelings. Contention made me very uncomfortable, and anger usually resulted in tears. (Ok, so I am still exactly like that, so what?). I even felt very strongly for people in movies! If they were sad, I was sad. If there were embarrassed, I felt it for them. (This one is more under control... but still, sometimes I can't help but put myself in their shoes!) This became very apparent one day as I was watching The Goofy Movie. In the movie, Max is always annoyed and embarrassed of his father, Goofy. This makes Goofy very sad, because all he wants is for Max to love him and be his friend! After watching this movie and empathizing so strongly with Goofy's sadness, I made a promise to myself that I would never treat my parents that way. Ever. I wouldn't get embarrassed by them, and I wouldn't be mean to them.

And I never was.

Don't believe me? Well.. too bad for you.

me and Jenna Colvin. see p.s. for why this picture is relevant. 

p.s. i have a hair appointment on wednesday, and i am craving a change! what should i do to it? (see above picture for present hair)

then again... i don't remember you.

Top 10 Things On My Mind Right Now

1. My mom. She's really cool. She should be on everyone's mind.

2. My overflowing bag of clothes on my floor. They need to be put away... by someone else preferably.

3. Sister's prom night. She wore my old dress and everything. Lucky.

4. Superheroes. Why aren't they real?

5. Planning a bridal shower for one of my oldest friends. And I love it.

6. What to wear tomorrow? So many options. Really though, I have a lot of clothes. See #2.

7. I think my cat Penelope should have her babies today. It seems appropriate.

8. Gym membership for the summer. Is it weird that I'm excited for this? No.

9. Ke$ha. Is she for real?

10. Jenna Colvin's letter to me. We used to communicate through blogs. Now we communicate on paper. That's cute.

huge overwhelming bag of clothes.

p.s. my mom rocks. she's a rockstar. but she rarely reads my blog, and i'm sure you people don't care that much about how much i love my mom, so i'll just tell her in person. happy mother's day!

when will my reflection show

I have recently become a very nervous person. It comes from putting myself outside my comfort zone.Which can definitely be a good thing. I mean, just because I am nervous about doing something doesn't mean I won't do it. It just takes me a moment to mentally prepare myself. Like before hopping on a bullet bike for instance. Very nervous time for me. But I pushed my nerves almost all the way to the side, ignored the thought that I should call my family and tell them I love them, and hopped right on.

But sometimes I get a little too nervous...

And that is when it is a good thing that my mom and two sisters show up unexpectedly and take me out to dinner.

And a very good thing when my mom looks at me with wide eyes and says, 
"Pull yourself together!!"

p.s. i'm getting a little sad that this school year is almost over.

if I throw my hands up any more they're going to fly off

First of all... I'M BACK.
And now, I just have to spout some words of wisdom for all of you less-wise people out there. Listen, learn, take it to heart. Here's something my mother told me all growing up:

PLAY THE MOVIE ALL THE WAY THROUGH

Some of you may be scratching your heads, staring at the words and wondering what they mean. Well, I could break it down for you word for word, but I'm going to allow you the benefit of the doubt. It means looking ahead to see all the consequences of your actions. And let me tell you, this is probably the best advice I can give anyone. And let me also tell you that I am extremely good at playing the movie all the way through. In fact, I'm a little too good at it. Ask me about any scenario and I can tell you all the ways it could play out based on the decision you make. Now, some of you may be laughing quietly to yourselves and saying, "well, why didn't you play the movie all the way through when you got the assignment to do those ten essays on the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL??" And to you I would say, I did play the movie all the way through. I saw the consequence. I saw the future. I saw myself during dead week, cramming two or three essays in each day before the due date. And let me tell you, I shook my head at myself for being so terrible and procrastinating so badly. But I knew it would happen, and I accepted the consequence. Now, for other things, I'm not so willing to accept the consequence, so I change my actions. And that is the moral of the story. Is this a story? I'm not sure.

Ok, what I really want to say is that my mom is always right. Always. And today I did something that she's been trying to tell me to do for years and years. And it felt so good. I practically skipped to the library today to write my final essays. I had a smile on my face. I felt amazing. And it's because of these two words and an emoticon I received in a text message after I finally said what I should have said ages ago... "good answer :)"

Here's to saying what you need to say and playing the movie all the way through. My mom's a genius.

p.s. Why do I think dancing like a super dork is cool? Oh, because I just don't care.