anonymous

Hey you. Yes, you. Gave me my first kiss and then got back together with your ex-girlfriend a week later. I hated that. That sucked. Really, pretty heartless, you know? And I heard you didn't treat her that well either. Well, whatever. Forget you. And oh yeah, can't forget you. You forgot me. All the time. Bottom of the priority list... all the time. I've never cried so much in my whole life compared to that time with you. And so what? You, who appeared to have everything, but couldn't see it right in front of you. Pushed me aside because everything else in the world was more important. And how about you? Getting mad at me because I couldn't decide what I wanted. Forcing me to decide I didn't want you. And maybe it's so annoying to me that you worked so hard to get me to like you that when I finally did, it wasn't enough for you. I was too nice to you. Whatever. And how was I supposed to know that you were treating every girl exactly the same as me? I was stupid to think that I was somehow more special in your eyes. Oh well. The whole time I thought that you were the one for me, but when I gave you the option of sticking around, you ran away as quick as possible. Well thanks. Thanks for making it really easy for me to forget about you. And as far as you go, I liked you. Don't sit there and make it sound like I had it wrong the whole time, like I was dumb for believing you liked me too. I deserve a lot more respect than for you to act like nothing happened between us. But if that's how you want it, fine.

I'm done.

(but really though, I'm not done... eh eh eh eh let's go!!... name the song.)

p.s. you know those times when you know exactly what you're going to say, but when you get to the situation, your words disappear? this is an ode to that feeling. get it all out there.

be ok today

"I'm so excited to hear about your night tomorrow!"I told Haley.

"I'm excited to hear about yours!" She responded.

"Oh, I'm nervous." I said, heading toward the door.

"Don't be," she answered sympathetically.

"It's ok," I said, "I'm resigned to my fate. Whatever happens happens. It will be ok."

It will be ok.

No matter how anxious or stressed out I get,

everything will turn out fine.

Isn't that something we could all pay attention to in our lives? The fact that everything will be fine.

But no. We get so wrapped up in the present. In the hurt, in the grief, in the excitement and stress of the day. The way we woke up wrong in the morning and everything was downhill from there...

But tomorrow IS another day. 

And you can choose the way you live it.

True, other people will be there, influencing you.

But you decide how you act, how you react, or how you don't act.

No one else can change that.

I've been thinking a lot lately about the line from 500 Days of Summer.

You know the one,

where Tom begs Summer for a little bit of consistency.

For the knowledge that she loves him, needs him, wants him around - the same way he loves, needs, and wants her.

And she says, "I can't give you that, Tom. No one can."

Is that true?

No one can.

No one can?

It will be ok.

For now, here's a movie of me and my friend Lauren. Doing what we do best. (whatever that is.)

p.s. what should i do this weekend?